Oh how the tables have turned!

Holy frijoles, batman! Today has turned into a really ridiculous day! I mean, it just flip-flopped on me out of nowhere!

I know, I know, I swore I wouldn't talk about work, but this just has to get out before I go loopy!

Structural changes in my company.

Okay, that's all I had to say, so moving on to how this is "NOT" affecting me...


It could have been me. It seriously could have been me. If I had done "what I was SUPPOSED" to do and followed the ladder all the way to the very tippy top...it would have been me.

Instead, I watch friends walk away from all they've truly known and go home to their families to break the news and pick up the pieces. It's not fair, but I'm glad it wasn't me. If it had to be someone, I'm glad it wasn't me. And there's no shame in my game.

Sometimes I think I'm too smart for my own good. Here I sit typing away while my sweet, adorable boyfriend asks "You writing another blog?" I respond quickly with, "yes, and by the way, I really pride myself on being able to spell, well." (Watch-spell check is going to fail me...on this one.)

And I do pride myself on my intelligence and strength that I am able to retain after all these years of being on this Earth with all of these external factors distracting me, but is it for nothing? No, I can't think that...it's not possible. The mind is a beautiful thing and I like to think mine has gotten me through a lot more than my heart ever would've. My heart has always said "Go, go my sweet into the strange unknown and become what you are meant to be", while my mind says, "No, no my broke college grad, keep that job and pay off your student loans so that you, Sean and the dog may live a normal life alongside your fellow countrymen."

BORING!

But, it's the truth. And I'm okay with that.


Ciao!


P.S.-I almost spelled would like wood. How's that for some shiraz while typing? Ha-thought I'd let you know I'm not perfect.